Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Today would've been our 16th wedding anniversary. Last year she gave me a bunch of gift coupons for a local sandwich shop where we liked to eat. I never got to share any of them with her although I shared with friends. I saved the last one for today. After taking some silk flowers to the cemetery, I had lunch at the sandwich shop as a way of saying goodbye. This Thursday will be one year after losing her. I'm in a fog. I still can't believe she's gone, nor can I believe a year has already passed.
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Today must be really hard for you, Carl. My sympathies.
I do believe, though, that passing through these markers of time actually help us to heal. It allows us to feel our pain more intensely without the need to push it aside in an effort to "move on." Once we make it through these markers, we hopefully, while still missing our loved ones, will find it easier to actually move forward.
I don't know what to say for the anniversary of your loved one's passing, except I'm sorry.
Hopefully moving forward you things will be less difficult for you (as they have been for me after my mother's passing).
-Ellen aka Q of S
P.S. Well said, CC. You have to face your pain in order to heal. (I wish some people in my life would realize that.)
The past few months (at least what I can remember) have been a rollercoaster of emotions. Joy one minute, sadness the next. Even someone I only see once every couple of months noticed during a recent lunch date that I'm on this emotional rollercoaster.
Emotions, like mental concentration and physical labor can be very exhausting.
Thanks, Caroline and Ellen. You two have big hearts.
A loss, regardless of who it is, will never be easy. Especially when the loss is a loved one that was by your side for over 15 years. Remember to always smile and keep a few cherished memories alive.
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