Thanksgiving weekend. Christmas is exactly one month away. I feel completely and utterly alone. I am so tired. I'm rudderless. I sit in front of the tv, but it's just brief escapism. Every now and then a neighbor will see me sitting on the park bench out front and say hi. I put on a brave face for their children's sake. The young ones don't need to be exposed to this. Their innocence is something to be treasured.